Ah, Trust ...
We left our cozy nest without knowing where we'd land. It was an enormous leap of faith on our part that we would find a suitable place to live, in the right location, within our budget, all within a pretty tight time frame. We set up house temporarily with family and have been living in a spare bedroom, out of suitcases, complete with dog grandchildren. (Sorry, I have very little unconditional love for small barking, jumping dogs ... a growing edge, I know.)
After a week of staying in hotels and another week of spare bedroom living, I was more than ready to get settled in to a place of our own. A meeting with a realtor friend didn't turn up anything immediate. I could feel my trust level sinking. My husband buoyed me daily, reminding me that everything was in perfect order. All was well in the grander scheme of things.
Finally I stopping resisting. I stopped "looking" for the perfect place to live. I accepted this groundless feeling that had been gnawing at me for weeks. And I fell into the arms of complete Trust ...
The final push into "being in the nothing," as my husband fondly calls groundlessness, was a quote that came through my e-mail from a fellow blogger, Jenn (who's navigating her own quagmire of trust right now).
“Just stay in the center of the circle and let all things take their course.”
And to me this meant, stay in your center, where inner calm, faith, and trust naturally reside. Breathe ... So I did. Finally.
Guess what? I know you know what I am going to say next.
On the same day that I did sink into complete trust, our realtor friend called and said she had a place for us. Turns out it was the same exact condo we had last year! It had not been available until NOW, as the previous tenants were having challenges and had to leave. This new little nest is ours—in a great location, for the exact dollar amount we needed, for as long as we want it. And it already feels like home because we spent part of last winter there. I love it.
It also has most of the amenities that our Michigan nest has, though with Florida flair. Mucho peace and quiet. Sweet, considerate neighbors. It sits on a little pond full of wildlife visitors for me to watch while I sit on the lanai and write (including two alligators that swim by.) Access to a swimming pool and abundant trails to walk.
So today I am at peace after having navigated a quagmire of trust issues. Hallelujah!
How about you?
How adept are you at trusting the Universe to provide what you need?
Do you clutch, moan, and gnash your teeth, or are you a smooth sailing chick who glides into the unknown with ease?
I'd love to hear!
P.S. This is a snapshot of our new nest. The photo above that is NOT of me, but I wish it was. I'm hoping it will be soon because it's been very chilly here. No beach or pool days yet. :-)
P.S.S. This quote came through my e-mail today from Gratefulness.org. It feels like the icing on the Trust cake. Enjoy!
Pray - period! Don't expect anything. Or better, expect nothing.
Prayer cleanses us of expectations and allows holy will, providence, and life itself an entry.
What could be more worth the effort -- or the noneffort?